separation...we will wait~

I never thought time flies so fast,he finally leave today.
I wont say much because it hurts.
ordinary people wont understand,only ELF would
I guess.
I dont know about others because some people might changes their hearts
but 2 years is nothing for me
I can wait and I will wait
later when he returns,I'll still be here
:')

 my leader.my brother-only he can do something like this.

credits to the owner as tagged in photos

Glad that he left with a smile.

Glad that the crybabies Eunhaewook didnt cried.how can they be so good at holding back tears?

but quite sad and dissapointed because Siwon didnt make it.tsk tsk.

just like other ELF,i pray he will do well in army

he will stay healthy and enjoy the normal life in the camp

and returns to us safe and sound.

Fighting Jungsoo oppa!

April 2014,i will write another entry on the day you back.

that valuable experience...~

Sepanjang jadi perantau di negeri orang,aku tak pernah tak balik kampung di musim perayaan termasuklah Raya Aidiladha tahun ni dan sepanjang jadi perantau inilah pertama kali melalui pengalaman balik raya paling sadis dan tragis sekali.hamboih sastera sangat!

Sepatutnya aku balik dengan kakak naik bas Sani pukul 9 malam semalam.pukul 830 malam dah gerak dari rumah.sampai je di Terminal Bas Seksyen 17 hujan turun.orang dah la ramai gila dengan majoritinya nak balik Kelantan hujan pulak makin lama makin lebat.terpaksa berteduh di tepi kaunter bas di celah-celah orang ramai.sampai pukul 10 malam bas tak jugak sampai-sampai.bajet nak pergi tanya kaunter Sani  tapi nak masuk ke bahagian kaunter pun tak lepas sikit punya ramai orang berdiri kat situ.aku memang dah basah habis dengan penat lagi berdiri dengan bagpack yang berat gila,okay siapa suruh bawa balik banyak baju.kemudian around pukul 10 lebih dah terdengar-dengar orang sekeliling bercakap pasal bas lambat bas masih di Bentong masih di Kuala Lipis bas stuck dalam jem sebab ada tanah runtuh bas tak tahu pukul berapa sampai bas bla bla bla.aku dah macam apakah?akhirnya nekad jugak aku pergi redah tanya kaunter Sani dan seperti yang didengar memang bas dari Kelantan entah pukul berapa akan sampai Shah Alam sebab tersangkut dalam jem sebab tanah runtuh di kawasan Pahang,kat mana entah.memang semua bas dari Kelantan tak sampai-sampai bukan hanya bas Sani.dah pukul 11 lebih.

Akhirnya kakak call umi bagitahu situasi kitorang masa tu dan gamble plan nak balik dengan flight sebab dia dah check ada flight pukul 630pagi ke Kelantan.aku macam agak cuak sebab tiket flight mahal kot aku dahlah tak gaji lagi nak bayar dengan apo?sampai nak menangis cakap dengan umi lepas tu dia cakap dia bayarkanlah just balik je.auuuuu I love you umi.kekekeke.nasib baik boleh return tiket dan dia refund balik duit tiket.lepas tu call taxi dan terus gerak ke LCCT.malas dah nak balik,lepak je di LCCT.first time overnight di airport macam ni.awal-awal okay lagi siap tawaf airport bagai jalan sana jalan sini siap berdiri depan international arrivals lagi konon-konon tunggu Siwon,hahahaha.masuk je pukul 2 lebih aku dah mengantuk.nak online tak dapat walaupun ada wifi free.last-last aku tidur jugak kat McD tuh beralaskan bantal atas meja.kakak memang tak tidur langsung layan tengok movie kot.dengan sejuknya dengan basahnya dengan tak comfortablenya lena jugak aku tidur.ah ko asal dapat tidur kat mana-mana pun boleh.

Sampai pukul 5 lebih kitorang get ready nak masuk balai berlepas sekali tengok flight ke Kota Bharu cancel.what.the.heck wei?orang nak balik rayalah!aku dah nak menangis.kakak pulak macam nak marah.lepas tu dia pergi tanya di kaunter service flight yang paling awal ada lepas ni pukul 1 tengahari.kakak dah nak give up tak nak balik dah tapi aku insist nak jugak balik.dah datang sejauh ni dengan berhujan naik taxi bayar tambang mahal-mahal overnight di mcD bagai tiba-tiba nak kensel balik kampung?oh please!aku tak nak balik Shah Alam balik!sebabkan aku insist nak balik jugak maka ambillah tiket pukul 1tengahari,lagipun tak sampai sejam pun.tunggu punya tunggu akhirnya kesabaran kitorang terbayar dapat balik lebih awal naik flight yang pukul 1045pagi.itu pun standby punya.phewwwww lega gila bila dah dapat masuk dalam flight.

Pukul 12 tengahari sampai rumah terus qada tidur tak beragak dah.gila 1st time beraya di airport.memang sadis sangat rasa lepas ni memang kena cuti sehari awal.apapun berlaku memang tak boleh dah balik malam raya.tak pernah hokay tak ada di rumah di pagi raya.sobs sobs sobs!tapi inilah pengalaman...such a valuable experience!

 coffe and music are my companies.(:

 2am.tak-ada-perasaan.

 

why...

I feel bad.so bad that I think I never feel like this.the whole week starting from Monday I feel bad and down and sad and stress and all the mixed feeling and today is the worst.I'm still ok before leaving home to work,in fact i'm a bit happy because of Siwon's tweet but as soon as I reach office with all the feeling already mixed up,an officemate pissed me off and bangg,there it start!all the emotions gone~I dont feel like working.dont feel like talking.dont feel like listen to others and all.I just wanna go home.and I'm start crying.secretly.till I cant contain my emotion anymore,I apply for half-day and come home.I...never do something like this.

the worst PMS!and part of it because of Jungsoo oppa.I keep thinking about his enlistment.I cant focus at work anymore since the day he starts counting the D-day.this is bad and pathetic.

why.

i'm sorry...:(

I feel guilty.I should have votes more.
I thought they would win because ELF votes like mad,but they didnt.
instead,Hangeng win.
like other ELF,i have mix feeling too.
feel very sad because SJ lost,i'm almost crying in the office.
but in the same time i feel a bit happy and glad that at least Hangeng did it,not other artist.
it might not hurt so much if the boys didnt tweet the reminders to ELF but 6 out of 10 members tweet about that,even the rarely-online-evil-magnae.
how can i'm not dissapointed and upset when they didnt make it?
i'm sorry...

because i PROMI5E TO 13ELIVE,i would absolutely support Hangeng.
you have come this far,you have to win.make SJ and ELF proud of you!

Dorky Donghae 26!

My dear brother Donghae.my crybaby Donghae.my handsome Donghae.my dork Donghae.my fish Donghae.he is 26 years old today but he is still a 5 years old kids,for me.

                                                                            Lee Donghae,26!

Just like other SJ members,i always pray for his happiness and health.for him to fly higher.for him to catch every dreams he dreams of.for him to become even stronger.because he is Lee Donghae from Super Junior,there's nothing he cant do!I love you pabo oppa!

i want to give EMA's 2nd stage as a birthday gift to him but they dont make it.:(

Dataran Maybank on fire!

 Khamis lepas Dataran Maybank buat firedrill tapi sayangnya tak thrill dan mencabar langsung dan tak nampak macam real langsung sebab sudahlah alarm tak bunyi,keluar jasa jeritan orang dalam ofis je cakap firedrill firedrill,apakah macam tuh?lepas tu sebab tak rasa cuak untuk selamatkan diri maka semua orang turun tangga dengan penuh sopan santun dan melenggang kangkung je.sampai di assembly area pun sama,semua orang sibuk bersembang dan even ambil gambar.okay itu termasuklah tuan punya belog neh.hahahaha.
maka aku rasa firedrill ini adalah fail.sama je macam di sekolah dulu.awal-awal dah cakap ada latihan firedrill,lawak okay!lagi real masa di Uitm Dungun dulu,tiba-tiba kolej terbakar pukul 2 pagi dengan bunyi alarm sekuat-kuatnya bertempiaran lari keluar dari kolej dengan hanya berpijama padahal itu hanyalah latihan firedrill.Dataran Maybank patut contohi Uitm Dungun,bahahahahaha!

Sebab tuan belog pun sibuk ambil gambar jugak ketika aksi menyelamatkan diri maka adalah gambar beberapa ketul.

 kena marah dengan security.orang sibuk selamatkan diri kau sibuk ambil gambar.bahaha.

 nasib baik terselamat.

berkumpul ikut level masing-masing.bayangkan ada 3 tower,each tower ada 20 level.

aku Tower B level 12.

Ya aku memang turun tangga dari level 12 sampai ke assembly area dan akibatnya sampai sekarang sakit kaki.nasib baik tak pakai wedges.

Harap tak ada lagi latihan firedrill seumpama ini.kalau nak terbakar biar terbakar betul-betul.eh?tak baik tahu!

October~~

Its October!
already?oh my...
today is abah birthday.
i love abah so much.i pray for abah every single day
may abah live a long life and always healthy and happy
and i start counting the day for real starting yesterday
as the days passing by,i'm getting more hrmmm how to put it in word
nervous?worried?sad?
i dont know but i have this kind of feeling
how i'm going to let him go...


its D-28.
Ya Allah please make me strong enough to face the day.